Fire Walk With Me

Reflections on the Full Moon in Aries on October 1st, consequently also stationed in Mars during its Retrograde: Aries is, in so many ways, a Warrior Goddess. Her reactionary tendencies can be that of a wounded wild animal, a victim ready to attack.

It’s important to look at how we define Anger outside of its mere defensiveness. Is Anger doomed to live in a realm of resentment, a perpetual pursuit of protection, or possibly, able to harbor a wisdom that can resonate with compassion, even when unwilling to allow another to compromise her boundaries? During the Harvest Moon, there were many discussions about Aries energies as it relates to Mars, Fire, War. Upon deeper inspection, we came to discover that Chiron, the Wounded Healer, also has the Ram staying as its guest. 

For those of us who have previously been attacked, especially in long term ties with family or romantic relationships, trauma’s stronghold will come to temporarily define us, if not create a long-term chain. Americans who are deeply frightened of the fascist regime that has been in power for the past 4 years (and is in looming threat for 4 more), we acutely feel the ways in which our private relationships with abuse and narcissism are triggered daily through the news. We are currently walking “in the Darkness of the Future-Past”, unsure of where history may repeat, unable to configure in what ways we are perpetuating our own victimization in our everyday reactions. 

Victimization as an identity is difficulty, and though we are not to blame for our trauma, we are responsible for our Healing. Without denying the reality of our experience, this recent Full Moon has brought to light the ways in which resentment can be like swallowing a pill and hoping for our own abusers to die, killing us instead. It is a grave time to find a bright hot fire to burn through our self-doubt and free us (as much as possible) from the struggles we have cycled through, without delusion or denial, moving forward to create a better path. 

Oftentimes, reactionary behavior says more about what we have suffered through, or how we truly view and criticize others, than it does about the other party. Poor projections of primal perspective, informed by insecurity, can be tamed through a pause. Learning to be soft and still is just as strong as the perceived picture of destruction and death the Warrior can bring. Dealing with the Demons inside of us is a battle of the heart. So we do not become what has hurt us in the Past, we must burn through the negative self-beliefs that only serve to sever us from the joy of true human understanding.


Still from Hausu

Due to our participation in #AnotherWorldOctober, prompts created by Chelsea Wolfe and Bill Crisafi, we delayed our usual Moon Musing for Day 3, “Favorite Film of the Season”. Excited for our first full 30-day challenge (or in this case 31), it’s been difficult to divulge in more serious films. What with the news all year, especially with the upcoming election, in order to stay reality-aware and well-read, it’s been ideal to embrace fun and fluff when it comes to films. 

Some favorites of the Spooky Season happen to already be goofy girly movies, brimming with ghouls galore and bitchy witches. Childhood favorites are quick pick-me-ups, like Hocus Pocus (whose sequel is in production for 2021) and Anjelica Huston in Addams Family and The Witches (whose remake trailer is now available, the cast including Octavia Spencer). Teen cult classics like The Craft also received a reboot:  the 2020 sequel will be available to stream on October 28. Nostalgia comes in troves regarding women finding their power through the occult. Glamour camp like Death Becomes Her, the lite-feminist single mom coven of Witches of Eastwick, sisterly love of Practical Magic. B-movie babes like Elvira: Mistress of the Dark can lead one down a huge Halloween wormhole. 

Hausu poster

An extraordinary oddball in the creepy camp comedy category is Hausu (Criterion Collection, 1977). A surreal and ultra-dreamy Japanese film loaded with gore, experimental edits and lots of giggles, the cast is primarily women, following a group of carefree school girls who stay in a haunted house possessed by a cat and an elderly aunt with a deceptive past. It is psychedelic, sentimental, adorable and absolutely strange. Directed by Nobuhiko Obayashi, who passed away in April of 2020 at the age of 82, many of the ideas were said to be presented by his daughter, Chigumi, an endearing detail which explains some of the outer limit creativity of the film. For our next MuseLetter, we will be talking about femmes in vintage fairy tale films that have intensely dark twists. For now, enjoy a frolic through the feel-good, the familiar and the fluff. You deserve it!


Sevdaliza’s ISON album art

Pandora’s BeatBox is the title for our first Symposium zine, due mid-October in a limited edition run, and our (first) Full Moon playlist (of October, as there are two) honors some of that emergent energy. Restraint, disintegration, identity, empowerment are common themes within the written collection; this collection of sirens echo some of the lust, loss, lament of the zine’s theme. Trance-like loops of experimental electronica are put on the highest pedestal in this musical muse, focusing on dark femme fire, with artists like Boy Harsher, Aurut, Shygirl, Abyss X and more.

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